Twenty Eight Flames On The Cake...

It is officially almost here. It will occur in approximately seven or so hours. The day I popped out butt naked and was ready to take the world by storm. My birthday. I was a cute kid, big brown eyes and eventually long brown hair. I always was fiery and always up to something. I had a fantastic imagination and played just fine by myself. I grew up on 130 acres my family joint owned with my aunt, uncle and cousin, and my grandparents. Basically we owned an entire mountain in Oregon. We called it Cloud 9. If I could do it that way with my kids I would. Live somewhere with tons of land and animals for them to explore. No childhood beats that in my opinion. It was amazing living like that with my family. My sister and I and our cousin-who really was like my other sister were always together. Things were so much simpler then. Scraping knees and making mud pies was the daily norm. Anything was possible.

That was a very long time ago! Now as I turn twenty eight it is completely odd that all too soon I will be thirty. Time just ticks on. I am planning on having a kick back day relaxing and enjoying my family. I feel content and blessed. I feel like I have been through a lot in this past twenty eight years. I definitely have learned a lot and continue to learn.

It is sad this is the two year mark me and my best friend haven't shared. The loss of friendship sucks, there is no other way to put it. It doesn't matter who is at fault or who is to blame, aside from all of that the bottom line is it is just plain sad. It is pointless to try to dissect a relationship categorizing ""you did this" and "I did that" contributing to our impending doom. It is what it is. People fail people, we are all guilty of it. The loss of something you felt was permanent is just hard to accept.

I just finished a book called, Something Borrowed. Very great book but it did bring some of the B.F. issues up again in my mind. I know that is why this feeling is coming back to me. I enjoyed the book even if it was crappy circumstances. Next I will read, Something Blue...it is the follow up sequel. Should be good.

I am thankful this birthday for my health, my children, my husband...all my wonderful family and friends. My mother. She is the ultimate best friend. I am very thankful for every blessing God saw fit to send my way.
Love this song, it is how I feel:
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