Tomorrow...DUN DUN!!!!

I am bucking up and going for it. Tomorrow is the BIG day! The day I endure Lasik. I kinda am in denial at this point and not doing my usual over-analyzing because then I will just freak myself out! I am excited and kinda feel like a mother who is gonna deliver, " I just want my baby to be healthy..." Yes, all I really care about is making it through the entire procedure without any of those unfortunate complications a small percentage of patients experience. No, I don't want to be included in one of those statistics! Cross your fingers, say a prayer for me cause I am going under the beam!

Tag Dat Ass!

Alright, alright I'll play! Geesh! I have been officially tagged by Miss Crazy Elaine and ya know what? I am down! Today is about my 5 obsessions...Now all I need to do is pick five out of many.

1. eBay...Damn. I unfortunately have been spotted and pulled in by there radar tractor beam and haven't been set free since. ANYTHING you want you can get. It is just a bid away from being sent to your door. The only teensy weesny down side is they track how much you spend and keep it there in your eBay for your unsuspecting husband to stumble across.

2. The Internet in general. My daily routine is get the kids off to school and hall ass back to check my email, myspace(Like YOU don't!) and then my blogger. I so DESPERATELY need to get a life beyond the net.

3.Music. I love nothing more than to be listening to my favorite tunes!

4. The Hills~totally and shamelessly addicted. Love Lauren Conrad, Love Audrina, LOVE LOVE Whitney...love the drama, love the fabulous clothes...love the sappy music they play in the background that completely makes the scene. Ahhh, *sigh* Cannot wait for Season Three!

5. I am obsessed with Emily Giffin at the moment. She is an author of Something Borrowed, and then Something Blue. Next I will read Baby Proof. I am expecting them to arrive any day! Thanks to none other than eBay!

Twenty Eight Flames On The Cake...

It is officially almost here. It will occur in approximately seven or so hours. The day I popped out butt naked and was ready to take the world by storm. My birthday. I was a cute kid, big brown eyes and eventually long brown hair. I always was fiery and always up to something. I had a fantastic imagination and played just fine by myself. I grew up on 130 acres my family joint owned with my aunt, uncle and cousin, and my grandparents. Basically we owned an entire mountain in Oregon. We called it Cloud 9. If I could do it that way with my kids I would. Live somewhere with tons of land and animals for them to explore. No childhood beats that in my opinion. It was amazing living like that with my family. My sister and I and our cousin-who really was like my other sister were always together. Things were so much simpler then. Scraping knees and making mud pies was the daily norm. Anything was possible.

That was a very long time ago! Now as I turn twenty eight it is completely odd that all too soon I will be thirty. Time just ticks on. I am planning on having a kick back day relaxing and enjoying my family. I feel content and blessed. I feel like I have been through a lot in this past twenty eight years. I definitely have learned a lot and continue to learn.

It is sad this is the two year mark me and my best friend haven't shared. The loss of friendship sucks, there is no other way to put it. It doesn't matter who is at fault or who is to blame, aside from all of that the bottom line is it is just plain sad. It is pointless to try to dissect a relationship categorizing ""you did this" and "I did that" contributing to our impending doom. It is what it is. People fail people, we are all guilty of it. The loss of something you felt was permanent is just hard to accept.

I just finished a book called, Something Borrowed. Very great book but it did bring some of the B.F. issues up again in my mind. I know that is why this feeling is coming back to me. I enjoyed the book even if it was crappy circumstances. Next I will read, Something Blue...it is the follow up sequel. Should be good.

I am thankful this birthday for my health, my children, my husband...all my wonderful family and friends. My mother. She is the ultimate best friend. I am very thankful for every blessing God saw fit to send my way.
Love this song, it is how I feel:
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